Smudged

I tried to show you just how much you mattered
but you left me in the dust my simple heart shattered
You're so consumed in the toxic poison you buy
just like a junkie, there's no way to deny
that when you think, you think of only you
not of the girl you love, the real true blue.
So break my heart, but pick up the pieces
I can't stand a life with you, the drama never ceases.
Quick to complain about a life that's so mundane
as you fill my life with pain, yet still you can't explain
what makes a heart so cold
and when did misery become all that I know?
The sedative you slipped is slowly wearing off
and I'm coming into a reality lost.
So aware of the treachery, the karma, the deceit
you can never give what I need to complete
the art thats been in progress for 21 years
the canvas is empty just as I'd feared.